简直是快要疯了！
压力真的真的非常大，我的抗压能力真的很差很差。。。
外婆住院已经一个礼拜多了，一直等待她出院的消息，但每次从妈妈口中得知情况越来越严重，甚至需要动手术，听了真的很煎熬！真的很怕在考试期间接到任何从家里打来的电话，我想我会崩溃！这种事从来没发生在我身上过，想到就可怕
每晚躲在房间哭泣，又背负着考试的压力不读又不是，又不能向别人述说，真的快要疯了！
真的很想很想快点回家，很想回去看我外婆。我也很怕在旅行时接到电话，很怕很怕！其实我心里很不安，但看到他们这么兴奋又不知这么拒绝。也许心里也很想去吧，很想逃避一切。每次回家都背负着很大的压力，真的很痛苦很痛苦。。很痛苦
Saturday, September 17, 2011
Thursday, September 8, 2011
Saturday, July 16, 2011
I'm so sad!
It is so bad luck today, wake up early for exam bt the last minute found that my car was no battery bt luckily still can rush for it.
the exam has made me so down! i almost dunno hw to do all and it is the second sub i faced this problem! dunno y this sem i always facing this problem, the question is nt hard and i actually can answered it bt dunno y i was unable to do so at that moment and my brain was totally blank. maybe i give too much pressure to myself or bz of the time constraint, many reasons was come into my mind. last time i was very confident in study, cz if i have spend my time sure can pass and score well n fail this word never exist in my mind ,so please dun let me climb higher n higher i will expect more and more on myself and nt willing to fall again by putting much pressure to myself.
i shouldn't expect too much of myself, then i won be so upset. Many will ask me nt to think about the past and focus on the future, ya, i knw... bt i cant stop myself not to think about it, cz i never faced this kind of failure before and i hope there was no first time!
i knw i shouldn't be emo infront of u all, bt i really cant control... really sorry about that... if sin din tell me i also won realise that my face looks so scary, everyone also nt dare to talk wit me >< she said my sadness has made her no mood too :( Anywhere thx for ur cocern and i will appreciate it...:) next time i will try to control my emotion, is TRY only a...
thx for the gentlement guy also haha... i was cried infront of him, gosh it is so SHAMEFUL! i thinkgal crying is really useful, sincerely thx for helping me find service for the car and wash it :) bt i won thx u face2face cz i knw i cant speak out too... thx u!
the exam has made me so down! i almost dunno hw to do all and it is the second sub i faced this problem! dunno y this sem i always facing this problem, the question is nt hard and i actually can answered it bt dunno y i was unable to do so at that moment and my brain was totally blank. maybe i give too much pressure to myself or bz of the time constraint, many reasons was come into my mind. last time i was very confident in study, cz if i have spend my time sure can pass and score well n fail this word never exist in my mind ,so please dun let me climb higher n higher i will expect more and more on myself and nt willing to fall again by putting much pressure to myself.
i shouldn't expect too much of myself, then i won be so upset. Many will ask me nt to think about the past and focus on the future, ya, i knw... bt i cant stop myself not to think about it, cz i never faced this kind of failure before and i hope there was no first time!
i knw i shouldn't be emo infront of u all, bt i really cant control... really sorry about that... if sin din tell me i also won realise that my face looks so scary, everyone also nt dare to talk wit me >< she said my sadness has made her no mood too :( Anywhere thx for ur cocern and i will appreciate it...:) next time i will try to control my emotion, is TRY only a...
thx for the gentlement guy also haha... i was cried infront of him, gosh it is so SHAMEFUL! i thinkgal crying is really useful, sincerely thx for helping me find service for the car and wash it :) bt i won thx u face2face cz i knw i cant speak out too... thx u!
Monday, July 11, 2011
cheer =)
everything will be fine, i should learn to monitor my mood dun get angry easily...
i knw myself, when get angy will lost control and did things that i will regret next time...
this world full of challenge, so i must gah yao!
pray hard to GOD for forgiving my sin... :)
i knw myself, when get angy will lost control and did things that i will regret next time...
this world full of challenge, so i must gah yao!
pray hard to GOD for forgiving my sin... :)
Tuesday, April 26, 2011
no moood for long time ady
Is me think too much? y im felling weird between us...
seem something had changes, u long time din share ur things wit me ady...
is u dun trust me anymore or bz i hurt u too deep... im sorry for that, n nw i nt dare to stare on ur eyes and scare to stay close wit u ><
maybe is me think too cz nw is exam session....anywhere wish u gud luck in exam and all the BEST! :)
seem something had changes, u long time din share ur things wit me ady...
is u dun trust me anymore or bz i hurt u too deep... im sorry for that, n nw i nt dare to stare on ur eyes and scare to stay close wit u ><
maybe is me think too cz nw is exam session....anywhere wish u gud luck in exam and all the BEST! :)
Thursday, April 14, 2011
是时候冷静了
其实你一直都不知道自己的问题出在哪里
每一次你都能拿出许多许多的理由去支持你的立场，要别人接受你，服从你，你可真的有真正站在别人的立场想过？（也是对我自己说的）
当看到那篇文章，再也不能咽下心中的火。。。
你说世上是现实的，你有考虑过当对方看到时的感受吗？
每一次不是我不想争执下去，而是我真的累了，也许分开一段时期对彼此都好。。
我并没要求过你迁就我，我一直这么地坚持，就算一个人也无所谓，只因为我真的不想再妥协了，请认真想想，有哪一次我不是尽我所能迁就你？
我不知道你妥协是因为没人迁就你还是因为想和大家在一起，如果是后者的话，你迁就就大家也不是一样吗？也许你会觉得很委屈，为什么大家就不能为自己想想。。可是你总不能让大家来迁就你一个吧？你说如果大家都决定要跟随你，害怕孤单的我也许也会选择跟大家一起，辛苦一点也无所谓....:)
就因你的固执，有个人必须牺牲来迁就你，你也许能说你并没有要求过他那么做，但是他就是忍不下心让你孤独就算不是他原本想要的。。也许这对他来说并不算什么，这个时候，你有考虑过他想要的是什么吗？为什么你不能换个角度来看，迁就他？而只是一味地觉得只有自己在迁就别人，别人不领你情，然后心淡，失落？？这也不是可以归于你所说的那个现实？自私吗？
我并不想写这一篇文章，只因我真的很在意。。我知道我没那个资格说一大堆的道理，因为我知道自己也存在着许多问题，只是想让你知道我的想法，一直不敢说的东西。。
也许现在你的脑袋浮现许多道理，或是感到很气愤。。。我只想告诉你，朋友之间必须学会忍耐，尊重，还有最重要的信任。。不要因为微不足道的事就认定大家是现实的，自私的。。。你会让我觉得友情很廉价，甚至不堪一击，那别人之前对你的好又算什么？我对你真的很失望。。
也许我应该开心吧，如果你一点都不在意的话又怎么会生气呢？:)
每一次你都能拿出许多许多的理由去支持你的立场，要别人接受你，服从你，你可真的有真正站在别人的立场想过？（也是对我自己说的）
当看到那篇文章，再也不能咽下心中的火。。。
你说世上是现实的，你有考虑过当对方看到时的感受吗？
每一次不是我不想争执下去，而是我真的累了，也许分开一段时期对彼此都好。。
我并没要求过你迁就我，我一直这么地坚持，就算一个人也无所谓，只因为我真的不想再妥协了，请认真想想，有哪一次我不是尽我所能迁就你？
我不知道你妥协是因为没人迁就你还是因为想和大家在一起，如果是后者的话，你迁就就大家也不是一样吗？也许你会觉得很委屈，为什么大家就不能为自己想想。。可是你总不能让大家来迁就你一个吧？你说如果大家都决定要跟随你，害怕孤单的我也许也会选择跟大家一起，辛苦一点也无所谓....:)
就因你的固执，有个人必须牺牲来迁就你，你也许能说你并没有要求过他那么做，但是他就是忍不下心让你孤独就算不是他原本想要的。。也许这对他来说并不算什么，这个时候，你有考虑过他想要的是什么吗？为什么你不能换个角度来看，迁就他？而只是一味地觉得只有自己在迁就别人，别人不领你情，然后心淡，失落？？这也不是可以归于你所说的那个现实？自私吗？
当你以为你抛下所有去迁就别人，别人也会迁就你，那你就大错特错了，
别人并不会因为你而改变，
就算你努力的改变自己去适应他们，
他们并没有那个义务要接受。
你是觉得不公平？还是觉得你付出后必须得到相同的回报？当你妥协后，只希望别人迁就你那一点点，你可真有问过每个人的意见，告诉过别人你的想法吗？或是试着说服他们？也许较后能得到共识。只是单方面地觉得别人为了自己，自私地把你抛弃了。。我并不想写这一篇文章，只因我真的很在意。。我知道我没那个资格说一大堆的道理，因为我知道自己也存在着许多问题，只是想让你知道我的想法，一直不敢说的东西。。
也许现在你的脑袋浮现许多道理，或是感到很气愤。。。我只想告诉你，朋友之间必须学会忍耐，尊重，还有最重要的信任。。不要因为微不足道的事就认定大家是现实的，自私的。。。你会让我觉得友情很廉价，甚至不堪一击，那别人之前对你的好又算什么？我对你真的很失望。。
也许我应该开心吧，如果你一点都不在意的话又怎么会生气呢？:)
Saturday, March 5, 2011
ming ku
y all lk to bully me de??!!
bz i yong sui, lc or bz of my attitude??
all my frens lk to bully me , shoot me....>< although some just meet in first time also start to shoot me...LOL
my frens lk to CHEAT me also!! just nw my frens cheat me tat is coming to kampar , ask me to prepare bed for them... i still sho sho dei gam trust them, bt finally they laugh me in fb!! so BAD....T.T
Ms J and A lk to shoot me , bully me, bt i knw they treat me very gud~ sometime they let me feel sweet ♥
Ms T also, although she lk to fool me , bt she vry sek me also....i LOVE the moment 2gether wit them so much!! :)
Bt sometime, i will feel very down when tat person ignore me....although i always tell myself dun care too much, bt is hard to control sometime... is ok~ ntg for me to do also....just let it be ba...
Today mood is nt bad~~~ i hv bought a bag tat i lk and shoes also~ mauhahahhahha xDDD
it is easy for me to feel happy~ i love shopping♥ ♥
bz i yong sui, lc or bz of my attitude??
all my frens lk to bully me , shoot me....>< although some just meet in first time also start to shoot me...LOL
my frens lk to CHEAT me also!! just nw my frens cheat me tat is coming to kampar , ask me to prepare bed for them... i still sho sho dei gam trust them, bt finally they laugh me in fb!! so BAD....T.T
Ms J and A lk to shoot me , bully me, bt i knw they treat me very gud~ sometime they let me feel sweet ♥
Ms T also, although she lk to fool me , bt she vry sek me also....i LOVE the moment 2gether wit them so much!! :)
Bt sometime, i will feel very down when tat person ignore me....although i always tell myself dun care too much, bt is hard to control sometime... is ok~ ntg for me to do also....just let it be ba...
Today mood is nt bad~~~ i hv bought a bag tat i lk and shoes also~ mauhahahhahha xDDD
it is easy for me to feel happy~ i love shopping♥ ♥
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